I Should Be…

I SHOULD BE writing about real estate, design or giving market stats. The truth is I don’t really feel like it right now. Staying true to myself, I will write about what is weighing heavy on my mind.

Three little words. I SHOULD BE.

My head spins constantly with these words. I SHOULD BE working harder, I SHOULD BE networking more, I SHOULD BE relaxing more. I SHOULD BE doing laundry. I SHOULD BE making more money. I SHOULD go to the gym. I SHOULD take a nap.

You get the picture, right? The inner battle is more exhausting than the thing I tell myself I should do. If I do let myself watch a movie then later I guilt myself about how I should have spent my time more wisely. Why do I do this to myself?

Well for starters, I have a list of things I want to achieve. I have places I want to see. There are things I want to do for my kids. If I don’t work hard then I can’t expect everything to just fall in my lap. No one is just going to walk up to me and give me my dreams. It is up to me to make them happen.

Or is it? Logically yes, hard work pays off, but have you ever noticed that when you let go for a little while things just seem to fall into place? Letting go is scary. Letting go means you have to have complete faith that everything will work out. Letting go means I will be satisfied with not having what I want now but knowing it will happen. IT WILL HAPPEN.

I like those three words better.


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